week ride with Scott

Yesterday week ride with BRAT and Scott. 34K, hilly, but nice. Up and down a circuit outside Barnt Green. Nice, really nice. It is nice to explore the nearby countryside, if the weather is nice... it seems the Spring has finally arrived, so there will be more BRAT training sessions, I hope. Next week the BRATs start to swim in the open water... it is going to be freeezing. The training is going on, slowly. I'm not dedicating the time and effort I wish. And I'm thinking. I'm thinking about the big themes of life. Why are we living, what is the meaning of life. I'm questioning myself, and I'm coming out with my personal answers. I'm coming out with 2 categories that can more or less explain everything we do in life. They are: memory and immediate gratification. We do stuff in life in order to have memories. That's our driving force. Memories. Also experience is gained in order to have memories of what we've done. What does not fell into memory, fells into immediate gratification. We do stuff (secondary stuff) in order to have some immediate gratification. I'm also considering I'm wasting my time living somebody else life, reaching something I'm slowly finding out I don't care so much about, at the end of the day. I'm finding I'm not living the life I like but I'm trying to like the life I'm living. But it is now too late to change direction and to try other routes, and I feel trapped in a prison, prison that, without knowing, I've created myself. And I'm not talking about triathlon, that is my escaping route. I'm talking about everything else. And that's sad. But yesterday ride with Scott was fantastic! I look forward to next ride!